Three days ago my life fell apart. He fell out of love, I fell more in love. Truth is, the pain will never subside, I shall never come to terms with my emotions. ”Best friends” thats what we are from here on out. I guess I have to take what I can get. If seeing him as a friend is all I can get, than I guess thats enough for me.
The distinction between being “in love” and “loving” someone is so unbearably and ridiculously confusing. It was hard to understand at first.. Hard to understand how one moment this guy is wanting to kiss me, to hold me, to hug me, to love me, and the next moment this relationship is all emotional and the physical part feels “wrong”. I’ll never fully understand it, all I know is, at this point, Connor Vincent currently stands as my Best friend, but to me, he is boy I love and always will.